The Inner Brat...

rears her ugly head again. i detest these brooding moods and i notice that i'm getting them more often recently. or perhaps it's been going on for a while, just that i've been too occupied to notice. life is simply too short, and aside from minor pitfalls, life has been fair to me also. i seriously have no idea what is causing these bad spells of ill humour... could be anything for all i know- repressed childhood trauma, poor health, anger management problems, low self-esteem, etc etc, so on and so forth. or it could be absolutely nothing at all. just a 23-year old brat trying to find excuses. i had grappled with a bit of depression in the past, but i've worked my way out of it in a slow process that spanned over a few years- or at least i think i did.

people with more major problems would probably line-up to get a piece of me. what could possibly plague a fortunate youth with a great family, who has enough friends to care for and who reciprocrate that precious sentiment, who has practically anything she's ever wanted including the opportunity to pursue her undergraduate studies overseas? it's true that no matter who we are, or what we do, we each have our own personal problems and the inevitable bad days to trudge through. on the other hand, it's grossly self-indulgent to wallow. my mum thinks it's because i'm leading a God-less life (i'm not! well not really). eileen thinks it's just all year round pms. i think it's either poor health or that elusive period prior to becoming clinically insane. i don't know. someone please tell me...